Nero is Mad, of Course

Rome burns.

The great city yawns and gasps in its death-throes. Stone cracks, and screams rise to heaven on wings of smoke with feathers of ash.

I fear this is partly my fault.


The world’s caliphs and emperors and gods know of me, most of them. Ascendancy often includes an introduction to higher things, an intimacy with the esoteric truths that prowl beneath the shadows. However, knowing of me gives no assurance I will come.

There are two reasons for this. One is that former rule often fails to survive succession (it isn’t always murder, but often enough), and thus crucial knowledge of the Night Children, of the Blood King, is forgotten. The other reason, of course, is that I do not care to go.

I grow weary of this world and its heresies, its hypocrisies, its convoluted hierarchies and halidoms. My children still matter to me—yes, even those who have rebelled—but more and more, I find little else does.

I will not simply come when called like some trained dog or ensorcelled demon. However, I admit no one has ever tried by slowly bleeding one hundred and twenty-six virgins in the warm night wind before.

Tonight, my name comes to me on that wind, borne by soft, bloodied whimpers like the dreams of zephyrs that pass over battlefields. I have ignored the calls from the Seven Peoples of this world for many years, but this, tonight of all nights—this, on an evening when I contemplate the end of a life so long as mine, this, on the anniversary of my first and favorite child’s death—this is the way Nero chooses to speak my name.

I am Nox Eterna to him, Eternal Night, the living-dead lord of blood and hidden moons. I am also Father to my children, Blood King to my many equals and enemies, and Thief to the child who vexes me most—many robes to wear, hot and heavy and cumbersome. Yet tonight, for reasons I do not know, I decide to answer his call: I don the persona of Nox Eterna and go to see what the mad human wants.


Nero is mad, of course. Everyone knows this, even those who benefit most from his excesses. Rumors of his hedonism and atrocity have reached me even in my isolated home.

I’ve heard he lay with his mother, then poisoned her.

I’ve heard he swims nude with small boys whom he has taught to nibble upon his flesh “like little fish”—although that rumor I’ve heard before, and suspect belonged to a previous degenerate.

I’ve heard dresses in the skin of wild animals, then attacks the genitals of human beings bound to stakes.

I’ve also heard he is a passable cithara player.

He plays it tonight as I come to his grand residence, drawn by the whispered cries of my name from the young human females tied and bleeding on the roof. Nine solemn priests of some unknown theurgy walk between them, cutting when wounds congeal. A hint of cloves and cardamom make a strange but sweet complement to the drip of blood and hopeless gasps.

This is an odd welcome. I should pity them. In older times, I would have, but I cannot find that softness within me tonight.

Nero plays as if no one else were near, with a distant gaze and a nimble hand that hints at true skill, were he a more diligent player. He plays and he waits, sprawled casually in his curule.

I watch him while the hours creep and the moon sets. Nothing in his pose shows doubt that I will come. Apart from his playing—and from the slashing priests and weeping women whose job it is to bleed and whisper Nox Eterna—nothing moves.

Until I move. Until I swirl behind him to take on flesh, to shimmer from dust into human form, and speak. “You have called to me, but perhaps this was not wise.”

I have chosen colors insultingly parallel to his own: a white toga lined and edged in royal purple, proclaiming my status as Blood King and more than his equal. But Nero does not twist to see me, though his fingers pause upon the strings. “You are late.” He makes a quarter-turn, barely enough to show me his frown and deep-furrowed brow. “I’ve called you to make an exchange.”

My hope that this journey has been worth the effort sputters like a dying candle. I already know what he wants. It is what they all want, humans, the Ever-Dying, the aggressively mortal, who spend their brief existence shearing one other’s lives to extend their own. He wishes to become my child—to drink my blood and mingle it with his, to transform into something far greater than he could otherwise be.

As I do not come when called like a dog, neither do I adopt madmen. “I doubt you have anything to offer me.”

“We shall see. Come.” He rises—a man accustomed to obedience—and leaves his cithara behind. The priests do not look at him; the young women do, pleading with their eyes as they continue to obediently whisper my name.

Pointless. I should leave.

And yet.

Many of my children live and love and sup in the cities he controls, and if I refuse him, he may seek them out. To know his demands would arm me on their behalf. Thus, for them, I follow, forsaking this strange divination to descend into his home.


Marble stairs take us two stories down the northwest side into the nymphaeum, where fountains weep from some hidden space. Sunken gardens richen the air with warmth and wetness. I am assaulted with opulence: everywhere, everywhere, polychrome marble and jewels and gold. Everywhere, everywhere, mosaics and statues of astonishing detail and color. Everywhere, everywhere, flowers and fabrics finer than his commoners will ever know.

The soldiers he has uselessly stationed all around me barely deserve notice—stiff behind statues, peering between leaves, crouching beside fountains.

I have been so long without excess that all overwhelms, nauseates, clashes and crawls together like a garish swirl of paint after rain. I yearn for my contemplation room with its simple cushions and agate bagua, my incense and the steady sound of the watermill outside my door. Why have I followed this far? Will I truly learn anything of value? What has this fool planned? “I grow impatient, mortal.”

My words touch some hidden latch in him, springing open truth like revelation of an illicit grave. He my meets my gaze—a feat few humans can manage without losing themselves—and smiles a hard and hungry rictus that threatens to consume the world. “There can be no new thing without the death of the old. Do you agree?”

An odd statement. “To some degree.”

“My empire is the pinnacle of the world.” His words quicken. “I define beauty. I define art. I am her heart and life’s blood! None compare to my sacred city!”

He says this to one who currently makes his home in a kingdom thousands of years older than his own. “Some might call it barbarian,” I reply.

Nero’s mouth twists as though to give birth to some dread gorgon, and he makes one violent gesture.

Of course, his men attack.

A net falls from the ceiling, weighted with heavy stones. Javelins reach me with the shouts of men, followed by swords, fists, and knives.

Nonsense. I have not meditated so long that I’ve lost my skill. I cast off my physical form; their points and fists swirl through my barely visible presence as if practicing on dust caught in a moonlight beam, but this is not all Nero has planned. Above us, the women scream as magic—true magic, which no human can wield—slides like oil through this place.

The walls crack. Darklight leaks through as an old spell of summoning rends the air.

This was no spur-of-the-moment conjuring. The walls fracture more as darkness pours from the fissures, accompanied by the reek of melted silver. The pressure in this room tightens, twists, until the nymph statues distort like melting wax and blood leaks from human eyes and noses. Above—yes, I know these ancient words now—chants and blood sacrifice join the chaos as Nero’s half-human priests call down aid in his pointless attack on my person.

I did not know he would go this far.

Surprise keeps me present, entranced by the mayhem and the beautiful swing of weaponry, and when the world of Umbra meets Earth like colliding stars, I recognize the quick and confident step of the one who walks between.

With a crack like thunder, he steps through. The world of Umbra leaks power, and the human world can barely hold his: magic stretches the edges of this statue-littered garden like an overfilled wineskin. His form is small—barely larger than my sweaty assailants—yet men and objects catapult away with his every step as though struck by invisible fists.

Yes, I know his step. I know his smile, bright against dark and feather-like skin. I know his eyes, dancing with a wicked mischief that once made no small mess of both our reputations. “Cadmin?” I reform to meet him with open arms. And he—Prince of Ravens, son of the Raven King, heir-in-training to the ancient and powerful ruler of the People of Darkness—embraces me with a laugh.

“Take him!” the human emperor commands, but we have greater things to discuss, and our combined power prevents anyone from interrupting our conversation.

“You seem fine! This purple suits you well,” Cadnin says, inspecting my garment.

Oh, such memories! “Only in the absence of Kemet’s perfect blue—which I admit I might have overworn.”

“Overworn? That is all you wore, you vain poppy.” Cadmin laughs again and conjures a small ivory stick with the head of a jackal. “I’ve meant to return this much sooner, had you not hidden yourself under a rock.”

Soldiers shout and thrust weapons between us, but cannot make contact; neither Cadmin nor I stand fully in this world. We might as well be ghosts.

“I have hidden more thoroughly than under a rock, friend.”

“I noticed.” Cadmin tucks the jackal piece into my toga. “There. My weighty debt is paid.”

My unpracticed smile aches, yet stretches so wide. “You are still absurd, I see.”

He presses outstretched fingers to his chest, absurdly aghast. “You dare! Of course I’m absurd. What else would I be?”

We have not stooped to Latin, so clumsy beside the language of ancient Kemet. Nero, however, clings to what he knows. “Prince of Ravens! I command you!”

“I did take his offering,” apologizes my one-time hounds-and-jackals partner. “Pardon me a moment.”

“He wishes to be one of my children.”

“Does he? I suspect he wishes something else. No lack of initiative in this one.” Cadmin tosses his feathery blue-black hair from one shoulder to the other and turns toward the reigning upstart. “I cannot comply.” Latin.

Nero’s sudden calm is betrayed by the mad joy in his eyes. “I see,” he says over the shouts and commands.

“You should have summoned my father,” says Cadmin with a shrug. “This one is far beyond me in power and scope. I cannot attack him.”

“I see,” Nero repeats as though Cadmin has delivered him everything he’d ever dreamed. “Then the compact is broken! We stand in unhallowed halls! Burn, burn, burn!” He grabs a torch from the wall and throws it into his gardens—doused with oil, I see that now, so the whole floral affair goes up at once.

And I…

I laugh.

Madness reigns. Some overly loyal soldiers still try to stab me, hurling insults and weapons in a pointless storm, and fire spreads too quickly to be natural. Screams have begun somewhere else in the building, shocked and angry and afraid. And I laugh like a fool. I laugh like an infant. I laugh like a man who has not laughed in a hundred lifetimes.

I laugh like one who cannot remember the last time when.

“That was his grand plan?” says Cadmin, looking around. “He just wanted an excuse to burn his palace down?”

“I think he wants to burn it all and build a new world upon the wold,” I manage. “This is the most convoluted, absurd…” I laugh again.

I had forgotten that humans, even the mad ones, could be amusing—though clearly, they needed a firmer hand at times. “Self-destructive little things.”

Cadmin laughs, too, and he kisses me.

It has been too long.

I hardly notice Nero leave. The soldiers abandon their pointless attempt to subdue me and run after him, falling effortlessly into formation, the exposed linens on their backs already soaked with sweat. Perhaps they have an appointment?

“Such a waste of beauty,” Cadmin says, licking virgin blood from his knuckles.

“Will you owe the Ever-Dying something for this, ah, ‘failure?’”

“No. The old contracts include a clause for attempting to force power play between uneven combatants. We are bargainers, not slaves.” Cadmin smiles. “However, I have been paid in virgins and gold, and so I shall return home content.”

I have not spoken this language in a thousand years. My tongue warms; my lips tingle with the memory of elegant rhymes and forgotten spices, of a dark, impassioned people made plump by the Nile’s wealth, and of a life lived richly among them.

Of Cadmin’s lips on mine.

Were there truly such colors once? Yes, and I enjoyed them. These broken mosaics are a poor substitute, but not as garish as I first thought. There is beauty in the excesses of human life, beauty in the brief and desperate flicker of the Ever-Dying mind. How have I forgotten?

Cadmin’s hand is heavy upon my shoulder. “Maybe you should crawl out from beneath your rock. The times are duller without you.”

I close my eyes, flooded with the echoes of a life once lived full. “Perhaps I should.”

“You should.”

“Say hello to the Raven King on my behalf.”

Cadmin laughs. “My father would eat my head like a grape if I mentioned you at all. Soon again, Blood King.”

“Soon again, Prince of Ravens.”

Then he is gone, and the crack of fire and wild screams cover the splash of hidden fountains and the creak of heavy rope. In the distance, shouts.

I have spent enough time here. Aware of the pleasantly warm night and the texture of this toga in a way I was not moments before, I abandon my human form as the door between worlds closes.


The seven hills are crowded, to my mind, and so I choose a watching place some distance away. Bright and hungry fire devours this city, ruining it, and a startling number of humans choose to burn and die rather than continue without their goods and possessions.

Naturally, I have commanded my children to flee. None of my own will die this night, and all shall find warm blood and willing lips in some other part of the world.

Nero has burned the city, or had it burned; I have little interest in his reasoning. He was not the first to wreak destruction upon that which he loves best, and he will not be the last. Rome was destined to burn this night. Still, this is a strange plan, even for one so hungry. Perhaps he was bored.

Bored, mad, or hungry, he was correct in one point: nothing truly new can grow while the old still lives.

My sigh joins the ash on the wind, rising in acceptance. Cadmin was correct, as well: it is past time to close my small hermit’s home and re-enter the world. I have hidden long enough. Have I paid my own debt? No; but I now think there is no self-imposed exile to balance the regrettable in my life. It is time for me to live again, to steep in the weirdness of human behaviors for a time, and to encourage those who dwell in high mortal places to remember my name.

Rome burns. The great city yawns and gasps in its death-throes. Over the heat and screams, delicate fingers dance along the cithara, playing with a nimble hand that hints at true skill, were he a more diligent player.

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